I think I need to shut up now.
I think that I think too much.
You want to know what I feel?
You want to know what I am doing?
Well here.
Natalie.
In all her glory.
Rhodes University
Charles Mackenzie
2014
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I think I need to shut up now.

I think that I think too much.

You want to know what I feel?

You want to know what I am doing?

Well here.

Natalie.

In all her glory.

Rhodes University

Charles Mackenzie

2014

6friend, portrait, led zeppelin, jeggings, bounce, light, photography, sun,

Dear Mother,

This is a picture of my friends and I. They support me. They believe in me. I’m not happy, but I’m O.K. All because of them. Because if they can learn to believe in me, then I can learn to believe in myself. It’s not fair for them to give me so much love, if I cannot reciprocate it. So I will learn to love  again.

P.S I am acting again. This picture is behind the scenes of my most recent piece BREAKING NEWS: ROBBERY AT THE KUIF.

Sarah did my makeup.

Love you,

Today and Forever

Hudson River

2014

6video, youtube, breaking news, robbery, chappies, diary, journal, hudson, river,

Work In Progress Wednesdays

Operation, organise yo life!

You will notice there is no content today.

For a long time, I have refused to focus.

I have refused to ‘settle down’

and make my mind up.

For a while I have tried to 'pursue nothing in particular, pursue everything instead!'

And it is just not working out.

I have no fixed goals,

no fixed focus, 

and it is messing with my abilities and self actualisation.

So as I focus on University work, and scale back the majority of my projects at large, this blog will quiet down a bit.

My goal is to return with full force and a clear objective by June/July. I know then that I will be in the best mindset and will be able to frame this blog the way it should be. See, I am a perfectionist on more than one level. There is the part of me that wants to ‘do everything right’ and then the part of me that wants to ‘do everything’. These connections often conflict, and it results in a fragmented vision on my part.

So bear with me please, I will feed you scraps along the way, but I want to say that to the small amount of people out there… that send me love and support. Thank you. You inspire me. Please keep doing so.

Much Love Charles Mackenzie

2014

6journal, writing, diary, creatures, life, goals,

creaturesofcapetown:

Mthabisi, at the pool
Thursday 24th October.
Rhodes University, 2013
VIA FLICKR



SELECTED CREATIVE: ONESMALLSEED
For all my life I wanted to be an artist in some shape, manner or form. I had no abilities and absolutely no artistic perception. Even when I started photography and received support from friends and strangers alike, I was no less certain of an artistic lifestyle. Being a ‘Photographer’ was not the same as being an ‘Artist’.Anyways, the first place that I ever received any artistic recognition was on the awesome website www.onesmallseed.net. Not only that but I made genuine creative friendships with other artists such as Yaseera Moosa andTyler McGown. Their work inspired me, and it was so great to have a place for dialogue with other amazing incredible artists.Back in the day, before I was anybody or anything, before I had any idea what my purpose on this earth was, I used to nag my mother to shell out money every time a new OSS issue came out.So today, I am absolutely humbled to be featured as their selected creative. Thank you to all those people who have showed me support,I have no intention of ever slowing down,Much love and appreciationCharles Harry Mackenzie 2014xx

VIEW INTERVIEW HERE
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creaturesofcapetown:

Mthabisi, at the pool

Thursday 24th October.

Rhodes University, 2013

VIA FLICKR

SELECTED CREATIVE: ONESMALLSEED

For all my life I wanted to be an artist in some shape, manner or form. I had no abilities and absolutely no artistic perception. Even when I started photography and received support from friends and strangers alike, I was no less certain of an artistic lifestyle. Being a ‘Photographer’ was not the same as being an ‘Artist’.
Anyways, the first place that I ever received any artistic recognition was on the awesome website www.onesmallseed.net. Not only that but I made genuine creative friendships with other artists such as Yaseera Moosa andTyler McGown. Their work inspired me, and it was so great to have a place for dialogue with other amazing incredible artists.

Back in the day, before I was anybody or anything, before I had any idea what my purpose on this earth was, I used to nag my mother to shell out money every time a new OSS issue came out.
So today, I am absolutely humbled to be featured as their selected creative. 
Thank you to all those people who have showed me support,
I have no intention of ever slowing down,
Much love and appreciation
Charles Harry Mackenzie 2014
xx

VIEW INTERVIEW HERE

Source: creaturesofcapetown

6ONESMALLSEED, creative, selected, art, photography, journal, writing, artist,

creaturesofcapetown:

If you allow yourself to be overcome by passion

you become arrogant.

-

If you dream everyday of the future

the present becomes a dream and the future disappears

-

Time is everything

-

Every day is a lesson for me,

thank god I am only 19.

I need to remind myself of this….

Source: creaturesofcapetown

500 posts!

I don’t even know why i’m posting this?

But I guess this is an online scrapbook after all…

Charles Mackenzie

2014

Source: assets

6500 posts, tumblr milestone,

What I’m watching:

Arctic Monkeys - Do I Wanna Know?

Inspiration is important.

Even it comes in a form that doesn’t fit with your agenda,

just because it serves a large purpose,

one of fulfillment.

-

In my opinion,

Music videos are the strongest form of media in our current times,

it may not currently have the permanence that it should… but it’s getting there.

Music is the most digestible and the most digested art form out there.

It speaks to us on so many different levels,

and can carry across so many different messages

and moods.

-

As a filmmaker I believe in music videos, 

because music is already so accepted

so known.

So if done right, 

they will only serve to make the musicians message clearer

and it will result in the most impactful collaborations. 

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TL;DR

WHY THIS VIDEO INSPIRES ME

Being the terrible graphic artist that I am,  the ability to animate escapes me(despite being my first real dream as a kid). With that said, animation is the easiest method of connecting with music, because things can created around all the different forms of the music.

Don’t know what I mean?

Watch this beautiful thing

Charles Mackenzie

2014

6arctic monkeys, do i wanna know?, inspiration, diary, journal, art, PROCESS,

Who is Hudson River?

I just can’t fucking write about myself.

image

It’s clear that I have an identity issue…but not in a dark way that those two words may insinuate. I want to have an identity. I want to be somebody.

But I don’t know who I want to be.

And because of this I don’t know how to represent myself.

Every time I’m required to explain who I am and what it is I do, I struggle. I struggle deeply.

But if I can create a story.

A production in which I play the title role.

I can prepare shoes for myself to fill.

I can project my dreams skyward,

and let Hudson get the gold at the end of the rainbow.

-

So I apologise;

if interviews are incomprehensible,

if at times I seem nonsensical,

Or if you just don’t understand

because often I am at loss for words,

when I have to write about me.

Charles Mackenzie

2014

6creatures, cape, town, writing, journal, diary, thoughts,

A Letter To Myself: From Charles to Charles

Why my artistic process sucks.

Every single day, I confuse myself thinking of on-going and forthcoming concepts.

I hastily rush to bang it all out, running on every step between idea and final creation. I forget how I work best, because I work best unconsciously.

Because my conscious mind is too preoccupied.

But more importantly, because my unconscious mind is a powerful daydream.

Ever since I was a kid I struggled with daydreaming. I was always lost in the present moment. But things have changed; I have my work to thank for that. Because when I feed my unconscious, and I feed my underlying desires, he gives me certainty and perception. Whilst he is chugging away in the background, letting ideas digest, carefully nurturing each and every one until they are ready for birth, I am present.

So when I try to fight my unconscious, and steal all the food for myself, he doesn’t nurture my ideas and more importantly he doesn’t give me his gifts.

So this is a letter to myself, reminding me to be patient.

To enjoy every moment.  

To accept that time doesn’t stand still.

To love life for what it is, not what I think I can make it.

2014

6writing, journal, letter to myself, diary, artistic, process,

Happi—-ness. A poem by Hudson River.

I dream of being happy.

I dream of going home.

I dream of falling in love,

and I dream of being loved.

-

I don’t want to be greedy.

I don’t want to be selfish.

I just want to be happy,

is that too much to ask?

-

I don’t know who to be any more,

I don’t know 

how

to

be.

I just want to be happy,

I just want to be 

me.

-

I dream of beautiful oceans and purple skies.

I dream of playing and jumping,

not a care in the world,

not a problem to solve.

I dream of being happy,

but every day I wake up

and

am

not.

2014

6writing, happiness, depression, poetry,

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